Randomness and more...what else is new...ToT this writer's block is going for the longest stretch ever....I do hope I regain it before something ELSE happens...

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The thought that counts...
at 1:20 AM

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I usually have weird dreams of the end of the world. What really scares me is that I am an onlooker during those events, I am not affected any way by it, I just watch the world spiral down towards its own oblivion. Kinda creepy, and well yeah it's just a dream, but sometimes I dream things that come true. Am I some kind of dreamseer perhaps? Or maybe I am just being paranoid? I also dream of things that...well, I also sort of "foretold" some of my relatives' deaths. Sometimes I see them in my dreams, these dead people. Is it all just a coincidence, or maybe I was just too affected by their deaths? But to my knowledge, I wasn't even THAT close to them. And contrary to popular belief or whatever, I don't even think of them a lot, so much that I dream about them. I can't make dreams follow what I wish to see. During those times I dream about the end of the world, I can't seem to stop myself from just looking towards the oncoming destruction. I was just simply there, and I can't stop it from happening. Am I going to be beset by a tragedy for which I could only just watch and not be able to do anything?

Then I see this one person in my dream all the time. I didn't think of this person that often too but all the same, the person is always there. Probably the person is someone from my past life. But just like my dreams with the end of the world, I can't seem to control the events wherein the person is THERE with me. The person is just there, then it would all fall back to the point like the end of teh world sequence, I can't control that person within my own dreams, much as I can't control my own dreams from fulfilling themselves even how much I wanted it to happen. Am I offered a glimpse of the future? Am I offered a glimpse of who I might be? Probably like all people out tehre, I was put here for a reason. And for whatever reason, well, sometimes people find out, and sometimes people don't for the rest of their lives.

Coupled with these dreams I also sometimes feel very sensitive in situations wherein I am not supposed to be sensitive. It only happened twice...it was a feeling that I was in great danger and it was so scary I really wnated to jump off the public utility vehicle I was on. Then sometimes when I don't like people....I just don't like them. It's like they repel me in ways I cannot fathom, and I can't control them.

Or probably Im just thinking too deeply into this. What do you think? :P

Labels: dreams, paranoia, prophecies

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The thought that counts...
at 11:47 PM

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